Stressed out Workdays
Haiz ok it's lke 5:35am on a friday morning! Have not slept yet! >.< Hopefully i'm finished with my business proposal. Last night was worse I guess but good thing I had the Unattainable Angel to help me out hehehe. She was a real doll. She was so worn out that day I guess. But she came over to my place to help me with it. I didn't do enough research cos I guess I didn't have much time to get all the info I needed. Sheesh getting OIl & Gas information is SOOO difficult and slow!
However, after painstakingly discussing and trouble-shooting and going thru the whole damn thing basically, she decided to ask me a few questions and managed to divert me away from the OIl & Gas thingy cos it would just take too long to get things rolling and it would cost a lot! Plus the returns might not be seen anytime soon.
She gave me an idea on running an Office Management System, WHich I must say really caught me by suprise! I mean yeah what she said about the whole thing was reaaally interesting but i will not reveal it here just yet cos afraid of the competition lolx should there be one! hehehe
ANyways, the poor girl was soo beat she fell asleep on my bed and told me to wake her up in 5 mins like every 5 mins for like 15 mins?! lolx Oh hell in the end i told her just lie down and sleep i'll set the alarm for 6am. Such a sight to see really lolx. But she woke up at 6am! stoned completely! and had to go home to send her brother to school. Me on the other hand fell asleep too woke up at 6am saw her off then fell back to sleep and woke up at 8am got ready and went to KLIA where I had to see my clients who were a pain in the ass really lolx.
ANyways, after all that I got back home in teh evening and continued to work on the proposal till now! lolx. Hmm. dun think i'll sleep tonight, cos i just KNOW i wun be able to wake up! lolx. And I have to present this proposal to the Directors and share holders later in the morning! haiz!!! such a tiring week this week.
Oh well tomorrow night me and a few friends gonna treat ourselves to a nice mediteranean fusion dinner and perhaps some drinking after that. Hope I can stay awake lolx. Or just dinner then home and drink and chill @ my place lolx.
Anyways, Hope all goes well tomorrow! If it does it'll be the first company to run such a system in malaysia! O_O nice eh?! hehehe
Coffee Friday @ Deutsche Gasthaus
Ahhhh.. today was a rather sombre day. Nothing interesting happenned so far. I did get like 2 hrs sleep or so though last night, so basically I was perpetually stoned the whole day at the office lolx.
Went to Roy's place in KL to go pick him up and we had dinner with his brother. We had nasi lemak kampung baru which is like the BOMB!. It was uber hot but delish nonetheless. After all that I we went to have coffee at a german pub! lolx imagine that having coffee at a pub! lolx.
It was cool though cos i love hte latte there, so only Diran ( Roy's brother) and Xander were there with me. We ALL had coffee, and even the manager there er.. crap forgot her name was like " Please lah you arr all upside down! come here drink coffee and go to D'Vine ( a wine drinking place ) and drink beer!"
Oh well like I guess I wanted a slow weekend. Heck tomorrow will be spring cleaning for me! looks like i gotta take b4 and after pics! lolx maybe... If i get down to it! lolx.
The response I got from her >.< the truth hurts!
This is the response I got from her. OH man talk about tearing one's heart to pieces! lolx Oh well, alls well that ends well. Anyways, feast on whatever pieces thats left of my heart and hopes broken...
A blinding lightWarm smile, tender soul,
Your caution eludes me.
A fine specimen? How distorted!
No matter what you see.
The apple of one’s eye
Is like poison to another.
To one is condemned, to another is pure
This verse does not prodder.
Narcissism, is a forte,
Take care of what you wish.
Dark nights see poisonous souls,
A vision far from delish.
Able yourself to think in sense
For people will never fly.
You are above and far, far above,
So far, I only see the sky.
And you are above, and far, far above,
So far, I only see the sky.
SenseI know that you feel for me,
I admire your soul that’s true.
Fate has brought a good friendship,
To corrupt that, I sin. I do.
And as a friend in fate, I tell
In my heart, I must be relieved:
Should I break that wall you say,
One mental state in disarray.
The love you feel
Merely infatuation pure.
In quiet arms you hold me,
My silence will be the cure.
A Charmed ExistenceA friend in fate will hold me close.
In their arms, I’ll feel warmth at most.
And warmth is all that we need,
Persistence in more, is a sin in greed.
I promise:
Cares I have few, and tears may be none.
My closets have no skull and bones.
I smile with my eyes and laugh from my soul.
A rainbow presides me.
Inescapable bad times are fun to survive.
Grudges and sadness, I carry not.
And the sky could rain on my parade,
But I would escape the heat.
My darling of all men, I know:
The field we play in is vast and wide.
You’ll consistently lose sight of me.
Loneliness needs the comfort of a golden heart.
Or threaten being lost as sea.
Sheer affection may turn to love,
And love make weak turn bold.
But prudence saved the kings of men,
Because all that glitters is not gold.
A sight to see & Feel....
A sight to seeBeautiful eyes, beautiful face,
I'm shy to talk to you.
You're the eagle I must watch
No matter what I do.
You're the beauty, wild and free,
The mistress of my eyes,
Rolling through exultant air,
Alone in pristine skies.
I would take you for my own
Could I but have your wings,
Could I but go where night begins
And frozen sunlight sings.
Could I but have you for my love,
How might we fly together!
But I must watch you from below
And long for you forever.
But I must be the one below
And long for you forever.
Feel...I know that you don't feel for me
The way I feel for you.
We're good friends, I value that,
There's nothing you need do.
But as a friend I need to tell you
What is in my heart.
An unsaid truth is like a wall,
Keeping us apart.
My love for you will go nowhere,
Will just remain with me.
I'll hold it in my quiet arms
And feel it constantly.
once bitten twice shy...
Wish that I could be with you
And hold you in my arms,
Whisper all my love to you
And kiss away your tears.
I wish that I could take your cares
And put them all away,
Neatly folded into drawers
While pleasure lights your smile.
I wish that joy could step inside
Your heart and stay awhile,
And all the rain could turn into
A rainbow in the sun.
And all my loneliness like mist
Could fade into the blue,
A memory of sad, hard times
That happened not so long ago.
But I cannot come home right now,
And you cannot come here;
And so my dreams must be the fields
On which I laugh and play.
If life cannot be what I want,
It will, it will be so;
For love can turn the harshest light
To gold through sheer affection.
The Colour of love...
Hmm... saw one of friend's quote "What is the colour of love?" hmm... made me think for like 5 secs and i told her it's GRAY. Now lemme see what I can do about it hehe
What colour is love?
Does it need to have a colour?
Aren't colours just another thing made up by society?
The colour of love some may say
Red or even pink but never gray
For me it's gray
and let me tell you why
how this decision came by
Gray, the colour associated with uncertainty
Gray, as the skies before a storm
Gray, as the saying neither black not white..
Isn't love all these above?
Therefore Gray is truly the colour of love..
decisions decisions...
Hmm.. well i'm in a kind of dilema right now. Yeah i know another spark has ignited my passion once again.
But this time I actually took time to get to know the person. She's honestly really great! We can have endless conversations about nothing?! or everything!, we have so much in common it's not funny!. But in the end I'm left with the decision if I should step it up a little. Is she the one? Does she deserve someone like me? Will I want to sacrifice the great friendship we have now and try my luck? Cos I KNOW what will happen if that's now how she feels about me. I'll just disappear again and lose yet another good friend.
Or perhaps, it's best we remain just that. i.e. just friends? A few of my friends say she's showing all the signs! I know it might seem like signs but then again maybe it's her character? I really dun know. What do I do?! where do I go from here? What if I wait too long that i get into the just friends zone? then it's all for lost.
She's somewhat of a poet too! and I can really talk to her. It's like we're on the same train of thought at times that it scares me how much we're so alike! And the best thing she is REALLY the kind of girl I would go after!! but as usual my guts are burried somewhere else. She actually brought out something which i guess i buried a very long time ago, I started getting all poetic? i dunno maybe its' just plain and empty words...
To yearn
is to hurt,
is the hurt worth the risk?
To love one who's so sublime,
Does one deserve such?
Like an angel she is
As untouchable as the skies above.
Risk is all,
some may say,
for once perhaps,
it would actually work.
Yet it seems the comfort zone,
of having someone to talk to
someone to listen and that listens
Woe is me,
for to hold and to love the angel,
unattainable...
